wow! two years!

wow, two years have gone by since I posted on here. I guess as therapy, it was sort of working, but it is better to go to an actual human therapist. Although I miss the gratitude journalling. Might have to get back to that. Some days I am so depressed it is hard to figure out what I am grateful for, and yet part of my brain knows that is ridiculous. I have the same things to be grateful for as always, which makes feeling depressed even more ridiculous. Who would feel depressed when they have such a lot going for them? Good job, amazing kids, sturdy house, good car, people who love me. What more does a person want?

This middle age thing has thrown me for a loop. The kids will all be moving out in a few days and I hate to see them go, even though I welcome the reclamation of space in the house. But what is a tidier house compared to the life and exuberation they bring to my life?

I don't want to ponder on all this today. It is a gorgeous day and I am going to get outside for a quick walk before I get on with my workday. I would not have even remembered this blog if I had not decided to check on Krysta's blog. I guess you can tell that facebook has supplanted the blog in my desire to vent my feelings to the world. crazy woman. should have been an author.