Thoughts after labour day
For once I am home earlier than usual. Bron at work, B has the day off, but is off doing errands. I myself am home, hungry and tired, but what do I do? sit down to blog. It has been on my mind for days that I have something to say and have had no time to say it. Supper can wait.
Bron started gr. 11 on Monday last week, of course I was already at work, so no time to take a photo or even see her on that first day. It occurred to me the next day that it would have been the 20th first day of school in this house. Next year will be the very last one, 21 first days of school. Cait started K in 1987 just a few months after David was born. It seems incredible. I would hazard to say that in all likelihood, this may have been only the second one I was not here for. (the past two years I have worked Mondays, which I have managed to avoid for most of my life so far) I find I am not particularly a great Monday morning person. This is likely due to the fact that on weekends I tend to sleep later, so am not ready for bed at a good time to be bouncing gladly out of bed on Monday a.m. But even when I get enough sleep, etc. I still prefer to come to life slowly.
In the hour I allot myself to getting ready, I find I spend about 40 min waking up, having a shower, etc. The last 20 min are devoted to running around like crazy, eating, packing lunch, getting dressed and zooming out the door. I once had a friend who would get up at 5 a.m., so as to have time to read the paper, drink coffee, etc. I thought he was nuts. Now I think I get it. The funny thing is, when I go in with B, we allow about 30-40min to get ready, I jump out of bed, no reading to get the mind going, just hop in the shower, get lunch packed and get dressed and gone. BUT, I don't have to be awake enough to drive, as he does. Sometimes I am fairly with it and sometimes dozy. I also don't usually eat my breakfast till I get to work then, at 8a.m. Wheras on a day like today, I have to eat before I leave, get to work at 9 and by 10 am starving! I think when you eat upon rising, it primes the pump. The other day, I tried the notion that a co-workers doctor says, nothing to eat after 6 p.m. I found I was so hungry I had two breakfasts, one at home, one at work and was still starving by noon. I also read if you are not hungry for breakfast that means you have eaten too much the night before. Given that we often don't get supper till 8, then I guess that is true. I know it is wrong to eat large meals, esp at night, but that is our lifestyle. Our work almost forces it to be that way. Ideally a person would eat 6 mini-meals a day, they say. I guess having one at work at 4 would likely help, but I Think a lot of it is habit. Yesterday we had our brunch at 11, our lunch (sandwiches etc) at 4 p.m. Got home at 8 and was not really hungry for supper, but made pizza anyway. So at 9 we were eating and then the ball gets rolling, you start to snack cuz you are watching tv....the tv character had Haagen Daz ice cream so that made me get up and get some heavenly hash ice cream...I have been craving ice cream for ages. I can hardly believe we used to eat it almost every day of summer when the kids were little.
Anyway back to the thoughts about the starting of school. David started his third year of uni today. Going to school here, so we see him more, and pay for more of his expenses. I can see where this was a plan for him. I think he came here because he had a girlfriend from the area. It is always about a girl with him. Although part of it is that he missed some of the family gatherings. Mind you, his grandparents took good care of him every time they went to S'toon and now they won't see him to bring him all those homemade cookies etc. I haven't made cookies for years...I don't cook much anymore, as I may have mentioned.Anyway he decided to break up with the girlfriend yesterday, so who knows what is around the corner. I think housing is a major problem in S'toon so maybe he will stay here anyway. He is very excited to have his own apt. (sharing with some friends, but not uni students)
Sometimes they seem so mature and sometimes younger. I can hardly believe he is older than I was when I got married. I guess we must have seemed like "babies" as some people said. I still don't regret my decision. Those first 15 years of marriage were the best of my life.
It feels so odd to be in the middle aged portion. A co-worker and i were just complaining about young people and the incessant text messaging and then I was thinking back to being a teenager. I was so glad we were off the party line by then! We thought we were cool if we could talk on the phone a few times a week. A three way call was amazing. Two of my friends were on the same line, so if we planned it just right, we could do that. My co-worker and i were mentioning how none of our friends would want to text us, we would have no one we would want to text. The only middle aged people I know who text, do it on the computer to get ahold of their kids. I still don't know how. I like email. I think the kids are letting that go by, in favour of the texting. I know in Bron's case, it is because the texting is unlimited (ten bucks a mo pd by me) wheras if she uses up long distance and airtime minutes I will freak.
Okay so B is home for supper and I suppose I should go. I know novels are no fun to read. I do this mostly for my own benefit, anyway. FAster and easier to read than keeping an old fashioned journal. I guess I need to bleed my thoughts out someplace.
In some ways, I have moved on, my kids are big, and the first day of school is no longer the huge thing it was. I was wondering how my mother would have felt with 20 first days of school, she onlygot 12. I used to be so happy when the kids went back! the house was mine again! the phone was mine again! And I loved the routine--so happy to disrupt it in July and so ready for it to be back by Sept. Now my life plods on routinely no matter what, go to work. I get up and go, no matter what Bron is doing. Except for appointments. She still needs me to be in the car, so she can drive with her learners....I will miss those times, in the car together, not the learning to drive stuff. I think I am even more full of anxiety now that a few months ago. I am glad I have no more teens to take practise driving, I don't think I could take it. Cait says if she has kids, she will pay someone to teach them to drive. Good plan.
Her first day of school was two weeks ago. She says she hates the first couple months while everyone is getting settled. I am sure it is harder for her with her students. They can't hack change. She has a couple new students and so far things are going okay. I guess I will always be asking about her first days of school.....from the far side.
Grateful today? grateful for peace and quiet; the lib in the city has been crazy with screaming children lately and parents tuning them out. Grateful for big kids who still want to go sailing with their parents, even if it is just about the food. (not a speck of wind yesterday, worst ever, just basically sat still--today and the day before the wind could take your hair off. hmm, Murphy's law, if you have a day off, the weather will not agree with you.) Actually Bron has a theory that Murphy (who I say lives here) is ticked because she doesn't have a sock drawer for him to live in. Actually she has the drawer, but prefers to keep her socks in a plastic bag because it is "easier". I must admit, she has been trying to go through her belongings and get rid of stuff. I wanted her to do it in July, but the beginning of SEpt is okay too. I think she will run out of time to do it though.
oh, also grateful for old rockers wanting to still tour. Saw Juice Newton on Friday and she was great. Maybe even better than 25 years ago. What a voice.! Powerful! Had a great time! Love that casino show lounge. Grateful for friends who remember the old rockers etc. as well as you do. Definately something to be thankful for.
Grateful for a fridge full of food, even though the door is somewhat malfunctioning at the moment. Better go make supper. Now that my few scattered thoughts are down, I might be thoughtless for the rest of the evening. (My big plans, food and mindless tv.)
Oh, also grateful for our new addiction, Gilmore Girls. Cait brought home three seasons and us girls are hooked. I am so grateful for having daughters, esp ones who know what their mommy likes.
Bye for now, D.
Bron started gr. 11 on Monday last week, of course I was already at work, so no time to take a photo or even see her on that first day. It occurred to me the next day that it would have been the 20th first day of school in this house. Next year will be the very last one, 21 first days of school. Cait started K in 1987 just a few months after David was born. It seems incredible. I would hazard to say that in all likelihood, this may have been only the second one I was not here for. (the past two years I have worked Mondays, which I have managed to avoid for most of my life so far) I find I am not particularly a great Monday morning person. This is likely due to the fact that on weekends I tend to sleep later, so am not ready for bed at a good time to be bouncing gladly out of bed on Monday a.m. But even when I get enough sleep, etc. I still prefer to come to life slowly.
In the hour I allot myself to getting ready, I find I spend about 40 min waking up, having a shower, etc. The last 20 min are devoted to running around like crazy, eating, packing lunch, getting dressed and zooming out the door. I once had a friend who would get up at 5 a.m., so as to have time to read the paper, drink coffee, etc. I thought he was nuts. Now I think I get it. The funny thing is, when I go in with B, we allow about 30-40min to get ready, I jump out of bed, no reading to get the mind going, just hop in the shower, get lunch packed and get dressed and gone. BUT, I don't have to be awake enough to drive, as he does. Sometimes I am fairly with it and sometimes dozy. I also don't usually eat my breakfast till I get to work then, at 8a.m. Wheras on a day like today, I have to eat before I leave, get to work at 9 and by 10 am starving! I think when you eat upon rising, it primes the pump. The other day, I tried the notion that a co-workers doctor says, nothing to eat after 6 p.m. I found I was so hungry I had two breakfasts, one at home, one at work and was still starving by noon. I also read if you are not hungry for breakfast that means you have eaten too much the night before. Given that we often don't get supper till 8, then I guess that is true. I know it is wrong to eat large meals, esp at night, but that is our lifestyle. Our work almost forces it to be that way. Ideally a person would eat 6 mini-meals a day, they say. I guess having one at work at 4 would likely help, but I Think a lot of it is habit. Yesterday we had our brunch at 11, our lunch (sandwiches etc) at 4 p.m. Got home at 8 and was not really hungry for supper, but made pizza anyway. So at 9 we were eating and then the ball gets rolling, you start to snack cuz you are watching tv....the tv character had Haagen Daz ice cream so that made me get up and get some heavenly hash ice cream...I have been craving ice cream for ages. I can hardly believe we used to eat it almost every day of summer when the kids were little.
Anyway back to the thoughts about the starting of school. David started his third year of uni today. Going to school here, so we see him more, and pay for more of his expenses. I can see where this was a plan for him. I think he came here because he had a girlfriend from the area. It is always about a girl with him. Although part of it is that he missed some of the family gatherings. Mind you, his grandparents took good care of him every time they went to S'toon and now they won't see him to bring him all those homemade cookies etc. I haven't made cookies for years...I don't cook much anymore, as I may have mentioned.Anyway he decided to break up with the girlfriend yesterday, so who knows what is around the corner. I think housing is a major problem in S'toon so maybe he will stay here anyway. He is very excited to have his own apt. (sharing with some friends, but not uni students)
Sometimes they seem so mature and sometimes younger. I can hardly believe he is older than I was when I got married. I guess we must have seemed like "babies" as some people said. I still don't regret my decision. Those first 15 years of marriage were the best of my life.
It feels so odd to be in the middle aged portion. A co-worker and i were just complaining about young people and the incessant text messaging and then I was thinking back to being a teenager. I was so glad we were off the party line by then! We thought we were cool if we could talk on the phone a few times a week. A three way call was amazing. Two of my friends were on the same line, so if we planned it just right, we could do that. My co-worker and i were mentioning how none of our friends would want to text us, we would have no one we would want to text. The only middle aged people I know who text, do it on the computer to get ahold of their kids. I still don't know how. I like email. I think the kids are letting that go by, in favour of the texting. I know in Bron's case, it is because the texting is unlimited (ten bucks a mo pd by me) wheras if she uses up long distance and airtime minutes I will freak.
Okay so B is home for supper and I suppose I should go. I know novels are no fun to read. I do this mostly for my own benefit, anyway. FAster and easier to read than keeping an old fashioned journal. I guess I need to bleed my thoughts out someplace.
In some ways, I have moved on, my kids are big, and the first day of school is no longer the huge thing it was. I was wondering how my mother would have felt with 20 first days of school, she onlygot 12. I used to be so happy when the kids went back! the house was mine again! the phone was mine again! And I loved the routine--so happy to disrupt it in July and so ready for it to be back by Sept. Now my life plods on routinely no matter what, go to work. I get up and go, no matter what Bron is doing. Except for appointments. She still needs me to be in the car, so she can drive with her learners....I will miss those times, in the car together, not the learning to drive stuff. I think I am even more full of anxiety now that a few months ago. I am glad I have no more teens to take practise driving, I don't think I could take it. Cait says if she has kids, she will pay someone to teach them to drive. Good plan.
Her first day of school was two weeks ago. She says she hates the first couple months while everyone is getting settled. I am sure it is harder for her with her students. They can't hack change. She has a couple new students and so far things are going okay. I guess I will always be asking about her first days of school.....from the far side.
Grateful today? grateful for peace and quiet; the lib in the city has been crazy with screaming children lately and parents tuning them out. Grateful for big kids who still want to go sailing with their parents, even if it is just about the food. (not a speck of wind yesterday, worst ever, just basically sat still--today and the day before the wind could take your hair off. hmm, Murphy's law, if you have a day off, the weather will not agree with you.) Actually Bron has a theory that Murphy (who I say lives here) is ticked because she doesn't have a sock drawer for him to live in. Actually she has the drawer, but prefers to keep her socks in a plastic bag because it is "easier". I must admit, she has been trying to go through her belongings and get rid of stuff. I wanted her to do it in July, but the beginning of SEpt is okay too. I think she will run out of time to do it though.
oh, also grateful for old rockers wanting to still tour. Saw Juice Newton on Friday and she was great. Maybe even better than 25 years ago. What a voice.! Powerful! Had a great time! Love that casino show lounge. Grateful for friends who remember the old rockers etc. as well as you do. Definately something to be thankful for.
Grateful for a fridge full of food, even though the door is somewhat malfunctioning at the moment. Better go make supper. Now that my few scattered thoughts are down, I might be thoughtless for the rest of the evening. (My big plans, food and mindless tv.)
Oh, also grateful for our new addiction, Gilmore Girls. Cait brought home three seasons and us girls are hooked. I am so grateful for having daughters, esp ones who know what their mommy likes.
Bye for now, D.
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