just keep swimming
Well, hasn't it been ages since I did this? A month in fact. A very busy month on my part. Hardly even get a chance to check the email or watch a tv show or just grab a couple of big deep breaths it seems like! Luckily I always manage to squeeze in a few minutes of reading. I get kinda squirrelly if I go a couple of days without any reading. (Besides work reading I mean!) Big changes at both my works, both at the same time, kinda stressful. I can't tell you how relieved I was to get a three day weekend. Last weekend was only a one day weekend and after this weekend, it will be two weeks before I get a day off. So I have to make the most of this one, as in catching up at home, plus grabbing some r and r. Funny how we are never satisfied. When I wasn't getting enough work, I was grouchy and now I am overworked and still grouchy....
Actually I am not grouchy right now. I have been fairly cheerful lately. I wanted to say that I just finished reading two great books, by S. Viehl-- Bio Rescue and the sequel Afterburn. Excellent books if you like her books. They are so detailed. You get to care about so many characters. I figure they should turn all her books into a couple of tv series, similar to Andromeda or Babylon 5. I am reminded of them, because they all start out looking fairly straightforward but then it gets complicated and you get to want to know what will happen to all the characters. So many stories in one story. I used to think they would make good movies, but now I realize they would have to be a series. Something like Firefly too, you get sucked in and you want to know more.
Bron and I finally got to watch a movie together last night. Seems lately all I have been doing is working, trying to find time to sleep and sleeping. Not even time for a weekly fix of Coronation St. So anyway after we were both finished work last night, we threw in the DVD of "Must Love Dogs" which I had brought at the last minute from work. I hadn't read the back, figured it would be lame (when I get ones I think would be really good, they usually turn out to be mediocre these days....) but we threw it in anyway. Actually it turned out to be a great chick flick. Would be great for me and my girlfriends to watch, but Bronwyn actually enjoyed it and laughed with me too. I wonder if we were laughing at the same things? Would have been fun to have Cait home too. Sigh. Christmas will be over so fast. I hope we have time for a couple of great movies...She will only be home for a week, bringing her roomate. They get in a midnight Christmas Eve and leave on New Years Day. I know they will find it really cold because I have been freezing this month it seems. And it is about 70 there...sigh again.
You know what I liked about that movie? They didn't kill off anybody. seems like nowadays all the romantic comedies still manage to inject some sadness by killing off the mother or something. This time there was a dad character, so I figured for sure he would have a heart attack just about the time the romance between the main characters gets resolved. But no! Everyone lives happily ever after! No violence or beatings or anything! How refreshing! Yeah of course it is safe and predictable,but sometimes you need that. Maybe all middle aged women need to think that wonderful romance is possible. Maybe that is what people get out of reading harlequins? I don't tend to read romance, but there is usually a bit of romance in whatever I read. Or at least, stuff about relationships, maybe not always romance. I guess I appreciate growth in my characters...
The trouble with reading something really good is that the next book you pick up will invariably be less good. Hard to get into. Tough to compete. Anyway I picked up an ordinary mystery by an author I like. That will do for now. I am too busy right now to pick up something that I won't be able or willing to put down...
Bruce has been crashing around the basement and tossing out bags of heaven knows what. I am afraid to look. I am always wishing he would clean up down there, but then when he does, he usually decimates something I needed. I keep telling him we need to go down together, but he waits till I am busy with other things before he goes down. I was in the middle of making supper when all the crashing started. I went down to flip the laundry only to find out the dryer was barricaded by old chairs and stuff.
Ooooo-KAY then. I came back up and made supper. Soon Bronwyn will be done work and I will likely go get her. She wants to drive all the time now, so I get to ride. She drove to Weyburn with me this week for an appointment (my first time with her on the highway, although she had driven once before with B )and drove home from the outskirts of Regina with her dad the other day after her orthodontist appt. I wish it was not coming into winter. I mean, I think it is better to be learning to drive in winter, than to learn when the weather is good, then get your license and go off on your own in the winter. But I am dreading winter driving myself, never mind with her behind the wheel. Sometimes I think it gets easier with each kid, but some things don't seem to get a lot easier. Just maybe more familiar, as in you know the drill. Kid number one, you have to find out all that stuff on your own. Kid number three, you know how it all works. Doesn't make it much easier. I know David must have driven in winter, but I can't recall. Funny how your mind blots that out. He is only still 19, so he has not had his license that long yet, and even so, I can hardly remember when he didn't have it. Although I do remember driving his dates home.....and that doesn't seem so long ago.....in some ways anyway.
I haven't called him in forever. I figure when I am free to phone he is either in class or at work or something. The safest time to phone him is probably about two or three a.m. ...but I am asleep. We got him about 300 bucks worth of groceries a week and a half ago, and a 400 hundred dollar pair of glasses. The glasses broke during the first week, but I presume he still has lots of food....Makes me feel good to know he has a full pantry. I wish we could have helped Caitlin like that. things were so different when she was in college. I can't even imagine what it will be like after Bronwyn graduates. I really can only imagine my life until her graduation. After that, no idea.
I don't know where we will want to live, what we will want to do, whether she will live at home forawhile or not. I don't really think about retirement because I figure we will have to work till we die. I just wonder how long I can survive the commuting thing. This week I drove 4 days and went with Bruce for one. It was fine because it is not winter yet. I know that we will take one day at a time, as we do each winter, but it just seems like such a long long time till spring. Actually the spring driving is the worst because of freezing rain and so on. I would hate to live somewhere where freezing rain and ice were more common than regular winter weather. At least when it is cold, the roads are usually good. I think the worst part is the second guessing. Wondering if it will be okay going home after work. Wondering if it is snowing, if it will blow. If it blows, will it stick? I think each year, I worry more. Must be the getting older thing.
Well, what I can I be thankful for today? Good homemade suppers (last week we did an awful lot of eating out or take away food) and sometimes a cold glass of coke when you need it. Hot cups of tea in the evening. Warm blankets and leftover halloween treats. A nice fire in the fireplace (one of the only reasons to enjoy winter) I am always thankful for my wonderful creative sensitive kids. Watching them turn into adults is just as much fun as watching them go from babies to big kids. I can't get over how fascinating it all is. This growth of people. I just realized today that it might be more amazing to me because we have had no little siblings or nieces or nephews or anyone else to watch grow up. On one hand, we have our kids growing up, and on the other, our folks growing older. Right now, I am in a good place. I hope it lasts. I am not looking forward to the hard days that are bound to come. My days go by so quick as it is, can't believe it is 8 days since I was at Dad's. I try to go once a week or two, or at least call. It just speeds like the speed of light. I guess I should be grateful. With the exception of a few times as a kid, I have never been bored. There is always so much to squish into the day. I think sometimes I might be grateful for some boredom, but that would mean I was sick...and when you are sick, you can't appreciate having the time to yourself. This September when I was sick, all I wanted to do was sleep.
I am thankful for my big warm bed, a purring cat (who this week has deserted me to sleep with the daughter who has a big warmer bed), and a soft , but not too soft, pillow. Not to mention the quilt my mother and I made together when I was a teenager. I bet she never thought too much of it. It was a crazy quilt designed to use up scraps. I know she never had any idea that she wouldn't be around to make more quilts. She loved making home-sewed things for her nieces and nephews and for Cait. I can only imagine what she would have done for David and Bronwyn. Makes you realize you should value every day on this earth. Of course, we can't go around like that, it would drive us crazy. Maybe that is why I need to blog once in awhile. Make me see the goodstuff and be thankful for it.
It's been a fairly good week, even though insanely busy. I Hope next week is all right and that you all have a good week too. Bye for now. D.
Actually I am not grouchy right now. I have been fairly cheerful lately. I wanted to say that I just finished reading two great books, by S. Viehl-- Bio Rescue and the sequel Afterburn. Excellent books if you like her books. They are so detailed. You get to care about so many characters. I figure they should turn all her books into a couple of tv series, similar to Andromeda or Babylon 5. I am reminded of them, because they all start out looking fairly straightforward but then it gets complicated and you get to want to know what will happen to all the characters. So many stories in one story. I used to think they would make good movies, but now I realize they would have to be a series. Something like Firefly too, you get sucked in and you want to know more.
Bron and I finally got to watch a movie together last night. Seems lately all I have been doing is working, trying to find time to sleep and sleeping. Not even time for a weekly fix of Coronation St. So anyway after we were both finished work last night, we threw in the DVD of "Must Love Dogs" which I had brought at the last minute from work. I hadn't read the back, figured it would be lame (when I get ones I think would be really good, they usually turn out to be mediocre these days....) but we threw it in anyway. Actually it turned out to be a great chick flick. Would be great for me and my girlfriends to watch, but Bronwyn actually enjoyed it and laughed with me too. I wonder if we were laughing at the same things? Would have been fun to have Cait home too. Sigh. Christmas will be over so fast. I hope we have time for a couple of great movies...She will only be home for a week, bringing her roomate. They get in a midnight Christmas Eve and leave on New Years Day. I know they will find it really cold because I have been freezing this month it seems. And it is about 70 there...sigh again.
You know what I liked about that movie? They didn't kill off anybody. seems like nowadays all the romantic comedies still manage to inject some sadness by killing off the mother or something. This time there was a dad character, so I figured for sure he would have a heart attack just about the time the romance between the main characters gets resolved. But no! Everyone lives happily ever after! No violence or beatings or anything! How refreshing! Yeah of course it is safe and predictable,but sometimes you need that. Maybe all middle aged women need to think that wonderful romance is possible. Maybe that is what people get out of reading harlequins? I don't tend to read romance, but there is usually a bit of romance in whatever I read. Or at least, stuff about relationships, maybe not always romance. I guess I appreciate growth in my characters...
The trouble with reading something really good is that the next book you pick up will invariably be less good. Hard to get into. Tough to compete. Anyway I picked up an ordinary mystery by an author I like. That will do for now. I am too busy right now to pick up something that I won't be able or willing to put down...
Bruce has been crashing around the basement and tossing out bags of heaven knows what. I am afraid to look. I am always wishing he would clean up down there, but then when he does, he usually decimates something I needed. I keep telling him we need to go down together, but he waits till I am busy with other things before he goes down. I was in the middle of making supper when all the crashing started. I went down to flip the laundry only to find out the dryer was barricaded by old chairs and stuff.
Ooooo-KAY then. I came back up and made supper. Soon Bronwyn will be done work and I will likely go get her. She wants to drive all the time now, so I get to ride. She drove to Weyburn with me this week for an appointment (my first time with her on the highway, although she had driven once before with B )and drove home from the outskirts of Regina with her dad the other day after her orthodontist appt. I wish it was not coming into winter. I mean, I think it is better to be learning to drive in winter, than to learn when the weather is good, then get your license and go off on your own in the winter. But I am dreading winter driving myself, never mind with her behind the wheel. Sometimes I think it gets easier with each kid, but some things don't seem to get a lot easier. Just maybe more familiar, as in you know the drill. Kid number one, you have to find out all that stuff on your own. Kid number three, you know how it all works. Doesn't make it much easier. I know David must have driven in winter, but I can't recall. Funny how your mind blots that out. He is only still 19, so he has not had his license that long yet, and even so, I can hardly remember when he didn't have it. Although I do remember driving his dates home.....and that doesn't seem so long ago.....in some ways anyway.
I haven't called him in forever. I figure when I am free to phone he is either in class or at work or something. The safest time to phone him is probably about two or three a.m. ...but I am asleep. We got him about 300 bucks worth of groceries a week and a half ago, and a 400 hundred dollar pair of glasses. The glasses broke during the first week, but I presume he still has lots of food....Makes me feel good to know he has a full pantry. I wish we could have helped Caitlin like that. things were so different when she was in college. I can't even imagine what it will be like after Bronwyn graduates. I really can only imagine my life until her graduation. After that, no idea.
I don't know where we will want to live, what we will want to do, whether she will live at home forawhile or not. I don't really think about retirement because I figure we will have to work till we die. I just wonder how long I can survive the commuting thing. This week I drove 4 days and went with Bruce for one. It was fine because it is not winter yet. I know that we will take one day at a time, as we do each winter, but it just seems like such a long long time till spring. Actually the spring driving is the worst because of freezing rain and so on. I would hate to live somewhere where freezing rain and ice were more common than regular winter weather. At least when it is cold, the roads are usually good. I think the worst part is the second guessing. Wondering if it will be okay going home after work. Wondering if it is snowing, if it will blow. If it blows, will it stick? I think each year, I worry more. Must be the getting older thing.
Well, what I can I be thankful for today? Good homemade suppers (last week we did an awful lot of eating out or take away food) and sometimes a cold glass of coke when you need it. Hot cups of tea in the evening. Warm blankets and leftover halloween treats. A nice fire in the fireplace (one of the only reasons to enjoy winter) I am always thankful for my wonderful creative sensitive kids. Watching them turn into adults is just as much fun as watching them go from babies to big kids. I can't get over how fascinating it all is. This growth of people. I just realized today that it might be more amazing to me because we have had no little siblings or nieces or nephews or anyone else to watch grow up. On one hand, we have our kids growing up, and on the other, our folks growing older. Right now, I am in a good place. I hope it lasts. I am not looking forward to the hard days that are bound to come. My days go by so quick as it is, can't believe it is 8 days since I was at Dad's. I try to go once a week or two, or at least call. It just speeds like the speed of light. I guess I should be grateful. With the exception of a few times as a kid, I have never been bored. There is always so much to squish into the day. I think sometimes I might be grateful for some boredom, but that would mean I was sick...and when you are sick, you can't appreciate having the time to yourself. This September when I was sick, all I wanted to do was sleep.
I am thankful for my big warm bed, a purring cat (who this week has deserted me to sleep with the daughter who has a big warmer bed), and a soft , but not too soft, pillow. Not to mention the quilt my mother and I made together when I was a teenager. I bet she never thought too much of it. It was a crazy quilt designed to use up scraps. I know she never had any idea that she wouldn't be around to make more quilts. She loved making home-sewed things for her nieces and nephews and for Cait. I can only imagine what she would have done for David and Bronwyn. Makes you realize you should value every day on this earth. Of course, we can't go around like that, it would drive us crazy. Maybe that is why I need to blog once in awhile. Make me see the goodstuff and be thankful for it.
It's been a fairly good week, even though insanely busy. I Hope next week is all right and that you all have a good week too. Bye for now. D.
posted by Diana @ 7:27 PM
1 Comments:
At 7:53 AM,
Heather said…
Great to hear how things are going your way - and thanks for the reminder about what I'm thankful for - I don't think I've done that lately! Enjoy your r and r ...
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