Well, today is another day. I decided that I will not ALWAYS post to the blog when I am in a bad mood. So I tried this a.m. but the server or something was not working so now you have me when I am tired and sore but still in a relatively good mood. I just finished with supper and am too tired to do dishes so am going to regale you with the last couple of days.
On Saturday, we hosted an antique road show type event, which became a good fundraiser. I had been worried we wouldn't break even, but we even made quite a bit of money for the library, so that was great. I spent quite a lot of today counting money, making deposits and the like. So the little town library has a healthy bank account, but is losing opening hours due to lack of circulation. Just a little rant here, why don't people read to their kids anymore? I know some people do, I see them in the city still, waiting for their turn with arms full of books. But I don't understand why so many people don't read to their kids at all, or maybe one book a month or something. They tell me they have books at home, but don't they get sick of them? I read to my kids till they were 13; it remains one of the very best memories of my life. With my son it was adult books, Star Wars and the like, after he graduated from kids' chapter books. Then we had Harry Potter. It was so hard not to read ahead.....!
Anyway done ranting. We had a really fun day on Saturday and I had my dad out for supper afterwards. Husband grilled pork on the BBQ that he had just fixed.(kudos for actually fixing something that is broken, right away, rather than leaving it a few years, and waiting for me to nag him to death about it, which makes us both really crabby!) I believe that last year I discovered that he hates BBQ-ing, but I still feel like it is a man thing. I can and sometimes do the BBQ-ing, but it is hard to get a meal ready that way, unless it is all out there. Mostly I look like a demented person flying in and out of the house every few minutes, trying to do it all at once. Anyway it was good, we had pork and store-bought salads, potato and bean. I like home made better, but hey, I was gone from 8:30 a.m. till about 6 p.m. and you just can't do it all.
Then yesterday I had planned to go visit my Grandmother. It is a 2.5 hour drive one way and my daughter and I do it a couple times a year, usually. I promised at Easter when I called her that I would be out on my next available weekend. Of course, I had to work the next two weekends and then when I had a weekend off, I was frantically trying to do laundry and such. I worked about three weeks non-stop without a day off in May and on the May long weekend, I took the youngest to Estevan to visit a friend and then we went to the farm for the next couple of days. So I knew that yesterday was my only option as I am not off again till the end of the month and then it is almost time for the oldest to arrive, so no time to go running about.
Anyhow the gist of the matter is, when it came down to it, I did not go. I played hooky. Oh I tried, really hard. I almost never blow something off, I am such a dutiful person I push myself to always do what is expected, but you know, sometimes, something has to give. I didn't sleep well all morning, so got up at 8:30, decided I should phone the oldest, she is two hours ahead, so it is hard to call her on weekdays as she goes to bed around 9:30, her time ,which for us is about suppertime here. So we talked a long time, I was telling her about these dreams I had all morning, every one had the same theme, I was having to do things I didn't want to do. I didn't realize they were all the same idea until I said it out loud. It was weird. That should have meant something to me, I guess. But actually I didn't mind going, I enjoy driving most of the time, really like to spend time with my dad and kid on the drive, I enjoy visiting my grandmother, who is very frail but her mind is just fine, thank you very much. I hope I am that sharp at 86 or so.
Sometimes you have to go ahead and do things you don't want to do because you know you should. But this has nothing to do with not wanting to go. I disliked visiting my other grandma in the home because she had alzheimers and didn't really know who I was. This is different. But anyway, to make a long description a bit shorter, I was just exhausted. I had spent all week running, had to get a broken tooth dealt with at the dentist, had lots of meetings and so forth at work, lots of figuring and such for setting up this antique thing, then a very long day on Saturday. It wasn't that physically tiring, I sat for a lot of it and I didn't haul the tables or big boxes of books (had a booksale too) but I think it was mental energy that was depleted. I didn't feel like staying home and doing housework either. Sometimes I put off going somewhere because I am just so behind in all my work at home that I feel I can't, but I had already mentally blocked this day off for family. Didn't want to do housework! But I kept yawning and such, just felt wasted. So in the end B and I decided to go to the city and if I was still tired when we got to my dad's we wouldn't go. So that is what we did. We just sat and visited and then went to a movie and came home. It was fun, a comedy. Paid for the expensive theatre, nothing on at the cheap one, naturally. When I want to go, nothing there, When the good ones are there, too busy to go. mind you, I have always loved Robin Williams (RV) and yeah, it was predictable and the usual gags, a guy taking his family on an RV trip. there was only a couple of little boys and us there, we had the whole theatre to ourselves on a Sunday afternoon, go figure. But I was hungry, so did the bad thing and ate half a can of Pringles and a can of pop. I wanted some humour, so I laughed with my daughter and had a good time. Sure, I felt guilty for not following my plan, but gee it felt good to take a day off, and that good feeling followed me into today. Something to be said for finally having a real day off. Came home and called an old friend who I recently found out was in the area. I had tried earlier in the week but she was gone and she had left me a message later but I was too busy to call back, So now, I came home, to my husband's surprise, and did not want to do a speck of work on my day off, so I sat down (I usually do dishes and clean the kitchen when I allow myself a phone call) and called her up, and she was home. It felt great to connect again, now we want to make plans to get together before she leaves Sask. again. The kids wanted BBQ hot dogs, so I made some and we had a late supper, followed by vegging on the couch and watching Coronation STreet with my kids, the perfect end of the day. We all had to go to bed as son started his summer job today, got back on where he worked in high school. Daughter had been up all night before, only had an hour or so of sleep all day (needless to say she missed her first two classes today, made it to the class before lunch, then came home and told me today is early dismissal!!!AT least she made it to one class today and it was a serious one, a good one not to miss!) I am tired now too, did a lot of running around today, as usual, then worked for the afternoon here. Tommorrow, I think I am going to try to do some work from home. I have a dr. appt that is going to mess up the timing of the day, so thought I would try to do that, rather than blow the gas money to go work in the city in the evening (I usually work evening on Tuesdays)where all I might do is try to catch up on my email and some planning that I can do here. I have never really done that before, but the programming season ended last week, so I am not blowing off a program. My city work centers around programming. I still have a whackload to do at work planning for the summer, cleaning and filing and catching up....But I have a puppet that needs a costume and all my sewing stuff is here, so hopefully I can squeak some work- sewing in as well. I miss doing home sewing, I had let my fabricland membership lapse last year. I bought so much material for the wedding that never happened, that I finally filled up my discount card, but have had no reason to go back to buy anything! I vowed to use up what I have here, which is lots. But i had to go in to get some fabric for work, and then I saw some lovely curtain material, buy 2 yards (i mean meters, right?!) and get one free, so who could resist. My living room curtains are some that I brought from home in the late 70's so who knows how old they are. I finally decided I was sick of them. But I haven't had a chance to get at them. Maybe when oldest daughter is home I will get her to help me cut them out. That is my biggest problem, So much fabric and wants to slither off the table, etc. So much easlier with a helper, then all I have to do is hem the sides and put a pocket on the top, and voila! cheap new curtains! I had wanted to make new blinds. Our old verticals don't work right, you can't get them open and they have been driving me nuts for years. But now it is summer, and they need to be permanently closed till fall anyway! So maybe in fall I will try to sew some roman blinds, try something different for a change. Check with me again in a year, and see if I have done it yet!!!?
I think work sucks up all my creativity, but at least I have jobs where I can exercise my creativity and do pretty much what I like. Can't argue with that. I also decided to quit thinking about how terrible my hair is. IT has a life of it's own, I always look like i just got out of bed, but I realized that I still really love the color. Find something nice about something, rather than obsessing about all the bad. I want to be a more positive person. I know from experience when I hang around with negative people,. I get more negative, so I am trying to not do that.
Well if you have read this far, then you know it is time for me to go already. I am like my son, words just bleed and bleed till I shut them off. Makes me wonder if we will ever be professional writers??? One can dream. Today I was wondering what I will be doing when I am older, say 60's-ish. I wonder if I will ever write a little column. I think it might be one of my ambitions. I figure if I ever lose my sight, then I will ask to be taught musical instruments. I wonder if they let you drum in the nursing home?
On that thought, bye for now! Take care, my friends. D.
On Saturday, we hosted an antique road show type event, which became a good fundraiser. I had been worried we wouldn't break even, but we even made quite a bit of money for the library, so that was great. I spent quite a lot of today counting money, making deposits and the like. So the little town library has a healthy bank account, but is losing opening hours due to lack of circulation. Just a little rant here, why don't people read to their kids anymore? I know some people do, I see them in the city still, waiting for their turn with arms full of books. But I don't understand why so many people don't read to their kids at all, or maybe one book a month or something. They tell me they have books at home, but don't they get sick of them? I read to my kids till they were 13; it remains one of the very best memories of my life. With my son it was adult books, Star Wars and the like, after he graduated from kids' chapter books. Then we had Harry Potter. It was so hard not to read ahead.....!
Anyway done ranting. We had a really fun day on Saturday and I had my dad out for supper afterwards. Husband grilled pork on the BBQ that he had just fixed.(kudos for actually fixing something that is broken, right away, rather than leaving it a few years, and waiting for me to nag him to death about it, which makes us both really crabby!) I believe that last year I discovered that he hates BBQ-ing, but I still feel like it is a man thing. I can and sometimes do the BBQ-ing, but it is hard to get a meal ready that way, unless it is all out there. Mostly I look like a demented person flying in and out of the house every few minutes, trying to do it all at once. Anyway it was good, we had pork and store-bought salads, potato and bean. I like home made better, but hey, I was gone from 8:30 a.m. till about 6 p.m. and you just can't do it all.
Then yesterday I had planned to go visit my Grandmother. It is a 2.5 hour drive one way and my daughter and I do it a couple times a year, usually. I promised at Easter when I called her that I would be out on my next available weekend. Of course, I had to work the next two weekends and then when I had a weekend off, I was frantically trying to do laundry and such. I worked about three weeks non-stop without a day off in May and on the May long weekend, I took the youngest to Estevan to visit a friend and then we went to the farm for the next couple of days. So I knew that yesterday was my only option as I am not off again till the end of the month and then it is almost time for the oldest to arrive, so no time to go running about.
Anyhow the gist of the matter is, when it came down to it, I did not go. I played hooky. Oh I tried, really hard. I almost never blow something off, I am such a dutiful person I push myself to always do what is expected, but you know, sometimes, something has to give. I didn't sleep well all morning, so got up at 8:30, decided I should phone the oldest, she is two hours ahead, so it is hard to call her on weekdays as she goes to bed around 9:30, her time ,which for us is about suppertime here. So we talked a long time, I was telling her about these dreams I had all morning, every one had the same theme, I was having to do things I didn't want to do. I didn't realize they were all the same idea until I said it out loud. It was weird. That should have meant something to me, I guess. But actually I didn't mind going, I enjoy driving most of the time, really like to spend time with my dad and kid on the drive, I enjoy visiting my grandmother, who is very frail but her mind is just fine, thank you very much. I hope I am that sharp at 86 or so.
Sometimes you have to go ahead and do things you don't want to do because you know you should. But this has nothing to do with not wanting to go. I disliked visiting my other grandma in the home because she had alzheimers and didn't really know who I was. This is different. But anyway, to make a long description a bit shorter, I was just exhausted. I had spent all week running, had to get a broken tooth dealt with at the dentist, had lots of meetings and so forth at work, lots of figuring and such for setting up this antique thing, then a very long day on Saturday. It wasn't that physically tiring, I sat for a lot of it and I didn't haul the tables or big boxes of books (had a booksale too) but I think it was mental energy that was depleted. I didn't feel like staying home and doing housework either. Sometimes I put off going somewhere because I am just so behind in all my work at home that I feel I can't, but I had already mentally blocked this day off for family. Didn't want to do housework! But I kept yawning and such, just felt wasted. So in the end B and I decided to go to the city and if I was still tired when we got to my dad's we wouldn't go. So that is what we did. We just sat and visited and then went to a movie and came home. It was fun, a comedy. Paid for the expensive theatre, nothing on at the cheap one, naturally. When I want to go, nothing there, When the good ones are there, too busy to go. mind you, I have always loved Robin Williams (RV) and yeah, it was predictable and the usual gags, a guy taking his family on an RV trip. there was only a couple of little boys and us there, we had the whole theatre to ourselves on a Sunday afternoon, go figure. But I was hungry, so did the bad thing and ate half a can of Pringles and a can of pop. I wanted some humour, so I laughed with my daughter and had a good time. Sure, I felt guilty for not following my plan, but gee it felt good to take a day off, and that good feeling followed me into today. Something to be said for finally having a real day off. Came home and called an old friend who I recently found out was in the area. I had tried earlier in the week but she was gone and she had left me a message later but I was too busy to call back, So now, I came home, to my husband's surprise, and did not want to do a speck of work on my day off, so I sat down (I usually do dishes and clean the kitchen when I allow myself a phone call) and called her up, and she was home. It felt great to connect again, now we want to make plans to get together before she leaves Sask. again. The kids wanted BBQ hot dogs, so I made some and we had a late supper, followed by vegging on the couch and watching Coronation STreet with my kids, the perfect end of the day. We all had to go to bed as son started his summer job today, got back on where he worked in high school. Daughter had been up all night before, only had an hour or so of sleep all day (needless to say she missed her first two classes today, made it to the class before lunch, then came home and told me today is early dismissal!!!AT least she made it to one class today and it was a serious one, a good one not to miss!) I am tired now too, did a lot of running around today, as usual, then worked for the afternoon here. Tommorrow, I think I am going to try to do some work from home. I have a dr. appt that is going to mess up the timing of the day, so thought I would try to do that, rather than blow the gas money to go work in the city in the evening (I usually work evening on Tuesdays)where all I might do is try to catch up on my email and some planning that I can do here. I have never really done that before, but the programming season ended last week, so I am not blowing off a program. My city work centers around programming. I still have a whackload to do at work planning for the summer, cleaning and filing and catching up....But I have a puppet that needs a costume and all my sewing stuff is here, so hopefully I can squeak some work- sewing in as well. I miss doing home sewing, I had let my fabricland membership lapse last year. I bought so much material for the wedding that never happened, that I finally filled up my discount card, but have had no reason to go back to buy anything! I vowed to use up what I have here, which is lots. But i had to go in to get some fabric for work, and then I saw some lovely curtain material, buy 2 yards (i mean meters, right?!) and get one free, so who could resist. My living room curtains are some that I brought from home in the late 70's so who knows how old they are. I finally decided I was sick of them. But I haven't had a chance to get at them. Maybe when oldest daughter is home I will get her to help me cut them out. That is my biggest problem, So much fabric and wants to slither off the table, etc. So much easlier with a helper, then all I have to do is hem the sides and put a pocket on the top, and voila! cheap new curtains! I had wanted to make new blinds. Our old verticals don't work right, you can't get them open and they have been driving me nuts for years. But now it is summer, and they need to be permanently closed till fall anyway! So maybe in fall I will try to sew some roman blinds, try something different for a change. Check with me again in a year, and see if I have done it yet!!!?
I think work sucks up all my creativity, but at least I have jobs where I can exercise my creativity and do pretty much what I like. Can't argue with that. I also decided to quit thinking about how terrible my hair is. IT has a life of it's own, I always look like i just got out of bed, but I realized that I still really love the color. Find something nice about something, rather than obsessing about all the bad. I want to be a more positive person. I know from experience when I hang around with negative people,. I get more negative, so I am trying to not do that.
Well if you have read this far, then you know it is time for me to go already. I am like my son, words just bleed and bleed till I shut them off. Makes me wonder if we will ever be professional writers??? One can dream. Today I was wondering what I will be doing when I am older, say 60's-ish. I wonder if I will ever write a little column. I think it might be one of my ambitions. I figure if I ever lose my sight, then I will ask to be taught musical instruments. I wonder if they let you drum in the nursing home?
On that thought, bye for now! Take care, my friends. D.
posted by Diana @ 7:20 PM
1 Comments:
At 8:24 PM,
Heather said…
sometimes you just have to take the day off for yourself...so kudo's to you for doing that. That's why somedays I wish I could work 1/2 time or not at all so I could get all the visiting I'd like to do in. I'm like you, get a day off and there is either housework or I'm just to darn lazy and tired to get out of the house to go visit or do something else I want to do.
Maybe when we are all in the nursing home we can all have computers and have time to become writers or whatever creative thing we don't have time for now, hey?
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